daily scribbles #6

Another day, another downpour of useless thoughts. It’s truly sad to discover that in times like ours, they are still people out there, who believe that homosexuality is a personal choice. And sometimes, you realize, these people are part of your family as well. Today, I was having a conversation with my parents on some family topics and pretty soon gays and lesbians began to “appear” on our table. Quite the picture, isn’t it? My family and I were talking about my recent affairs (not relationships). My father wanted to hear from me what my plans were for the future. I think I forgot to mention in my previous “daily scribbles” posts that he had had a job interview when my parents and my brother came to visit me in Germany. He wants to start working and living with me for the next few months after the middle of September this year. This is great news  because I kinda need human company once in a while. I’ve been alone for quite some time and living with someone could give me a fresh start. And according to my father there isn’t a better start than going back to school. Last year I decided that I was just too cool for it, and I abandoned ship. My student career was far shorter than I’d intended it to be, but now I am presented with an opportunity to resume sleeping on textbooks, regularly going to parties with drunk girls and having no euros in my pocket. I forgot about that last part. Being a student equals being broke all the time no matter where around the world.

Curiously, I kinda look forward to my return in university. I still have to choose a course and a faculty, but for now I am pretty sure it’s all going to be in Stuttgart or somewhere nearby. It all sounds great considering the fact that some of those courses are taught in English. For some inexplicable reason I cannot make myself learn German and then study for my exams in it. All of the assholes who consider German to be a melodic and pleasant to hear language, are hypocrites and liars. The naked truth is that it’s not. It’s far from it. By miles.  I have tried to force myself to like it for nearly a decade but the result was always the same. My mind simply blocks any word I try to remember, which leads to it being instantly forgotten. Or maybe I just can’t be bothered. Either way I live in Germany and someday I will have to be able to speak it properly. I am merely postponing the disaster. Some of my most curious readers might want to ask the following question: “Why did you move to Germany, if you don’t like the language, you dumbass?”. And the answer to that is: “The things I do for a hot chick with a car…”.

Girls, if you want to be desired by men, make sure you shave, have a car and have a fucking idea of what you are supposed to do in bed. If you happen to be hot as well, all would be even easier (I am sure the babes are already aware of that). It’s that simple. And the resulting amount of idiots, willing to sacrifice anything they have for you, would be limitless. Let’s get back to the initial topic about gays and lesbians. Apparently, my mother thought that the increasing presence of homosexuals in our daily life is due to the fact that as a generation we are weaker and cannot deal with difficulties. My response to that was that being openly gay in our society is probably one of the most difficult lifestyles one could choose for himself. The thing is that being attracted to the same sex is NOT a choice, it’s what you are. My parents grew up during the old Communist regime which meant that homosexuality was cleverly covered as WW3 nuclear programs. Sorry to have that bubble burst for you, mom! I bet she would have had the opposite opinion on the matter if I happened to be gay.

Tomorrow, I will be departing for Bulgaria, a trip which I am not at all eager to make. But I have to do it anyway. I haven’t seen my homeland for some four years which happened to be the best of my life. I’m not messing with you. Along with my luggage I will have to prepare an extra nervous system and a whole package of fake smiles for all my relatives. My brother went back there nearly every year for reasons clear as a daylight – for women. I could understand him – Italian women are hideous. Thank goodness, I live in Germany now! But I couldn’t bear the thought of going to that shit hole myself even for princesses. (And while on the topic of shit holes, poverty, utter cretinism and beautiful women check out this article.) In my eyes it wasn’t worth the sacrifice he had to do. I am inclined to think I was right back then. I will let you know if anything had changed for the good during all these years. I seriously doubt it.

Last night I was pleased to see that The Hunger Games was finally uploaded with decent quality on my favorite movie site. It was nice and interesting but I don’t think it deserves a long review like the one I did on The Magic Of Belle Isle. So instead I will just share my humble opinion here. I expected a lot from the movie if I have to be honest, but I wasn’t fully satisfied. I was not disappointed, either. Visually the movie delivered a lot, the acting was OK, but the story was a bit predictable. I guess one cannot go much further in terms of storyline when dealing with a race to the death. Still, the lack of soundtrack in the beginning had a particular effect on the tension. It kept things more real to a certain degree. Donald Sutherland did a great job as the silent and wise evil mastermind, and as for Jennifer Lawrence, I thought the effort she’d put in everything deserved some credit. Here is the trailer for those of you who missed the film.

Yesterday, I got League Of Legends back onto my computer. I hadn’t played it for nearly a year and I have to say that I missed the bloody game quite a bit. It’s fun, it’s engaging and I already have a nice account which I didn’t want to lose. Most of all it’s free to download and play. The only problem that I experience, is that my laptop becomes extremely hot in a manner of minutes. I don’t play more than a game because I fear it might overheat and then I would be screwed. I need my computer and if I fuck it up with some bullshit online game, I will have to shoot myself in the nuts. But if I stick to one or two games a day, I believe it won’t do me any harm. It’s all for the fun. If you happen to play as well, find me in the game – Magnum Pete.

Wow, I am such a nerd!

Anyway, see you soon! If I have Internet connection in Bulgaria, I will keep you updated to what’s going on.

Pete Noge

10.8.2012